maybe i just feel like breaking down. and decomposing into pieces gradually becoming nothing at all.

FUCK. DAMN. MOOD SWING. SUCKIT.

THE BS DOES NOT BALANCE. AND THIS IS SO IRRITATING. F LAH. ESPECIALLY WHEN I'VE GOT SUCH USELESS PEOPLE ON MY TEAM. ONLY KNOW HOW TO WORK BUT DONT KNOW HOW TO DO SCHOOL WORK. BUGGER.

i've watched high school musical already!! haha. and i suddenly feel it's so true. if one starts telling their secret, everyone will be ready share theirs too. and also, true friends will support you all the way. they wont dampen your spirit. but how many true friends are there in the world.

also, you should follow your dreams. many a times, people dont follow their dreams. to be exact, they dont dare. unless someone supports them. i mean it's good to have such supportive friends. right? haha. blah blah blah.

but i'm glad that i've met him. i've done all sorts of silly things and crazy stuff with him. singing, watching movies, walking, falling in my heels, putting fake lashes, dancing stupidly (which i cant), jumping around, watching tv together, fooling around, drinking and getting drunk (him i mean, haha), gambling, going bai nian, going for birthday celebrations. LOL. i love him so much. muacks. =)

i simply love the view when there was me and you...

hey gorgeous in nyp wasnt as nice as expected. it was BORING. only the first girl was pretty. the rest? ehh CMI.

met jes. went bugis. had dinner and guess what? it sucks totally.

saw a jeans. but i think it was too ex for a bugis jeans. went to zimple. tried on some clothes. and f that girl attitude. 'are you buying anything? if not i'm closing the shop.' WTF.

cleared IM2, GSC, CBS and java test. it was a killer paper. cause my mind went blank totally. i'm disappointed honestly. =(

played trickster. ehh. not really fun but really addicted. haha.

last christmas was such a touching show. teared abit. so upsetting. what if i was the girl? will my bf be like the lead actor? haha.

i'm so bored. need to buy oranges.*pouts. so not in the mood to do anything. i wanna sleep my day off. good bye.




p.s. i wanna watch high school musical~ haha.

SO GUO FEN!!! HONGDA SAY MY HEAD BIG LIKEB HIS GF!!! SO BAD LAH. I'M GONNA KICK HIS HEAD IF I SEE HIM TOMORROW. WAHAHA. =P






I LOVE LIM HUEY HUEY~~

this is so frustrating especially when codes dont work. anyway we've got to redo our CBS because fristly, our flow is similar to ken's, secondly, i've purely no idea how to use hibernate, lastly, we're going to use JDBC to do it.

much more tests and projects dued. dammit.

i feel so stress now.

things to be done:
- IM3
- ENTREPRENEURSHIP
- GSC
- CBS

hopefully i didnt miss out any. haha.

luckily my IS is done.

my god, i love my flower so much. wahaha.

suddenly i feel that my life sometimes only revolves around some people and some things. it only starts revolving when bf is with me, or when i'm with my friends. then there'll be times when it stop revolving. but now it will continue to revolve till my blood test results come out. which is in a week's time after i go for it tomorrow. all the best to me. haha. i love flower..

lalala. been a few days not blogging. went to the doc yest. had a long time waiting for the doc. was complaining till it reached my turn. and turn out, the doc was good. not those kind very fu yan de. but he really check all the aspects. lol. and one moment, i felt like i was aya from one litre of tears. check my eyes, check my hands, check my temperature etc. okay, i ask for it lah. i asked how's my thyriods going on. haha. so now, i've to go for a blood test again. which is so draining. keep drawing blood. duhhh. but lucky i've a very nice bf who's willing to keep me company through all the long waits. thanks you my darling. =)

anyway discussion for entre was much better than the previous times. hehe.

bf stayed over at my house. sometimes it feels so good to have someone by yourself. when you wake up and see his stupid face. wahaha. so cute. i love my darling. =D

Create your own Friend Test here

those in class would had known that we almost fought with the SBM guys. LOL. such a funny scene cause someone got even more worked up than me. and i wonder why.... but all was well after the session. haha.





my email function fails to work. dammit. i dont know wth is wrong with it lah. the codes are exactly the same as before but it dont work this time! irritating.





zhenglong helped us to finish our CBS. lots of thanks~ =)





so many projects to be done.


- IM


- GSC


- ENTRE


- IS


- EAIPJ





god i'm dying. i need to shop.





and has anyone realise today is friday the 13th? and unfortunately, bf has fallen sick on this day. =(

just trying to be irritating during lecture. wahaha. =P

my stomach's aint well these few days. and it sucks. making me feel terrible. =(((((((

f. my damn post got deleted and i dont know why. damn.

anyway watched transformers. i love bumble bee! haha.





was thinking what i'm living for. what? why? how?
for a future? which i dont think this course have given me any.
for the present? which i dont think it's pretty good at the present just that i met some nice people.
for the past? which i dont think there's much to say about.


life was messed up since sec two. been trying hard to keep my life back. but nothing does the job. cause there was this stupid ah lian who kept pestering me. spoiling my life. spoiling my relationships with the others. spoiling my reputation.

then not before long, i screw up my o levels. after o's, i met a jerk. he suck. not surprisingly he hurled so much #$%^&* at me over my junior. okay, it was over. should have condemned him at the beginning. hurhur.

got my results. got a good luck wish from him. got into NYP and into this stupid course called business informatics. haha. but on the first day of orientation, i met someone special. he gave me a sticker. which was kinda stupid cause it's simply useless. make me lost with a course mate called steven. someone took us to our class. met someone called fiona. =) left after awhile.

2nd day. had some lecture. and he came into my sight again. i wore a wrong coloured shirt and became super AA. orange, i still remember. haha. he came over and sorta introduced himself. my god. 老套！haha. got to really know him after getting his number from my OGL. which i stupidly fell for his trap. which isn't a very good thing. haha.

had a date. and we got together quite quickly i supposed. thought it would start fast and ended even faster. but it did not. which was the best thing~ =)

soon later, one small furry creature joined our family. mochi! my sis's bday gift from a friend of hers. she brought along 4 new lives. rips didnt manage to survive. flip was gone after being sick. such tormenting time to see him go. he was my favourite. the only one who would let us hug and carry and then he will urine on us if he got scared. haha. and he loves the pink pillow.

then came some clique conflicts which i never understand and never knew how to solve it. but life was still okay till some changed. never knew what can cause drastic change in a person. never understand someone completely. never trust someone even after knowing them for a long time. never.

but never say never.

till i met mr tan, ms huang, mr paglar and of cause that monster other than my family. i learned to trust. trust is such a mutual thing. and i gradually learn that to be able to have a trusty relationship, it's sort of, you need to gain their trust. you need to open up first/more. when you open up, they too will open up. and the trust relationship will be established. unless they dont plan to open up in the first place lah. it's hard to maintain a friendship when there's no trust, isn't it?

but then, there's such things as drifting apart. like with fiona, with jessie, wani, ziqi, ifah, kaiying and all. cause our timetables just clash. we just cant find a perfect timing, we just cant meet up. and it sucks completely. cause of projects. cause of bad choices of grouping. hate it. hate everything.

until your world collapse, stay strong. i wish i could.

i miss my mommy. i miss flip. =(

SOME CHINA BASTARD TRIED TO STEAL MY PHONE AWAY WHILE I WAS WAITING TO POUR SOUP! HELLO?! I'M NOT BLIND LAH. FUCK YOU MAN. STILL CAN BEDEK SAY THOUGHT IS YOUR FRIEND'S PHONE. SO GOOD ONE MEH? AUTOMATICALLY PUT THE PHONE IN YOUR OWN POCKET WITHOUT TELLING YOUR FRIEND? BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!

teo yk start to suck. i nwonder what caused the drastic change in him.

had IS ica. dammit. hope i get it all correct. LOL

missed bf.

loved this song. so true.

bf please listen hard. wahaha. =D

god. damn cramps. duhh.

anyway queued for donut factory. FOUR DAMN HOURS! god. i'm impressed at our patience. LOL.

bf's happily sleeping now.
we're going the food fair tomorrow.
i think.
but maybe most prob not? haha.


die.
i've so much things to do.
but i just dont have the mood to do.
whenever i've the mood, something crops up. damn!


anyway thanks for all the gifts and wishes on my birthday. especially, ms huang, mr paglar, ms sis, mr dad and mr bf. =D